You're Almost There!

Since January first, I have been reading a 40-day devotional written by 24 leaders in the International House of Prayer. While reading this book, I wasn't going to share this but I guess we are here, I devoted myself to fasting for the forty days. This was so that I could start my year out right, offering myself to the Lord. I thought for a bit on what I should fast, knowing it had to be something of importance to me. So, I chose Youtube and Snapchat, two of the apps that I spent the most time on. I kept Instagram and Facebook for blog-sharing purposes.

So I have been on this fast for a while, forty days to be exact. There has been so much change in my heart, from reading this book and giving up those idols that held me back. Near the end, around day thirty, I began to be really sad. I wasn't really sad because nothing was wrong with me, I just wasn't happy. I was ruining friendships all because of this second of sadness. It was dreadful.

I had no idea what was going on with me, and people asking made me feel worse. Finally, around day thirty-nine, I was praying and just asking for relief. I did not want to be sad as much as the people who loved me did not want me to be sad.

On the last day of the devotional, I was reminiscing over all of the spiritual change and growth that has happened, in me, in the past forty days. I was in awe, overwhelmed with thankfulness! Still in the funk I was in, I heart that still, small voice say, "Stick it out one more day." At that moment, I immediately pictured the photo below. This picture is one that my mom always points out, never stop before you reach your diamond. In this case, my diamond was freedom of this sadness.

Being obedient to the Lord, I decided to continue this fasting journey. THE NEXT DAY... my whole attitude was different. I was not sad or anxious. I was filled with joy and excitement, what I had felt at the beginning of my fast. I am so thankful that God always fulfills His promises, and they are always right on time. I pray that you guys will stick it out. Keep searching, digging, climbing. Soon, you will find your diamond, whether its in the middle of the cave or on top of a mountain.

I still have not watched Youtube, just being quiet to listen what God has to say. Tomorrow is my forty days for Snapchat. Looking forward to what this new season has to bring. Thank you Jesus, for your freedom, forgiveness, and faithfulness. Love you always!

Onward, christian soldier!