Walking With God

What does it mean to walk WITH God?

What does that look like to you?

I have been asking myself that question for a little while now. I had realized that I was trying to go before God and do the task myself. This was draining to do. Then it dawned on me, I have not been walking with God, I have been trying to race Him. And it is impossible to win in a competition against God.

I repented of not walking with Him like I should. I laid down the competition and decided to let God have full control of my life. Every struggle I had, I felt that I needed to fix it because it wasn't something that God had to be bothered with. I found that, for me, it was way easier to give God my victories rather than trust Him with my failures. That comes from a place in me that hates failing at something.

I am a raw and honest person, and that is exactly what I am going to be on here. I am going to share this part of me because you guys may feel the same way. When I fail, I feel that I am less than and that my family (which is amazing and would never do something like this) would just lose all hope in me. It makes me feel defeated and if I am going to do something, I am going to try my hardest not to fail. That is something I struggle with, perfectionism.

Yet, I have noticed that walking with God is not about being perfect. It is about being raw and real and open every second of your life with God.