How I Battled Fear and Anxiety

In my last post, where I write about my testimony, I said that I have been delivered from extreme fear and anxiety. Here is the deal, it was not like I was afraid of just one or two things. I was literally afraid of E V E R Y T H I N G! At the time, I could not even tell you what I was afraid about. It was just like a "every single thing is creepy" type fear. I struggled with nightmares so bad that I would wake up crying. Life is almost unbearable living bound in chains. I am so very thankful that God is merciful and gracious to rescue us from suffering. Guys, we all deserve death, pain, and suffering but Jesus paid His life for us. Thank you, Jesus, we are all so thankful for you.

Ever since I was a little girl, I had always dealt with fear. I was afraid of people (every race and every gender), what was in the dark, my closet, fire, scary movies, outside, being alone, and the list goes on. This fear was crippling! I could not live a normal life because every where that I turned was filled with something I was afraid of. A dear friend of my moms recommended Psalm 27 because that is what helped her girls. When I say I read that scripture, I READ that scripture. There were many nights where I fell asleep with the Bible on my chest, open to Psalm 27.

This Bible verse got me through so much! It helped me sleep and it gave me peace. At one point, we had a group of women come to our house and pray over it, my room, and our land. This was because I was so paranoid by things I heard in my brain. To say the devil was in my head would have been an understatement. I loved Jesus but the devil knew the little holes in my life where he could slip through. I had a prayer cloth in my pillow case that my mother had anointed with prayer. My family and I tried everything we could to bring me peace.

This fear carried on into my early teenage years. I was constantly having bad dreams. They would not go away! Thankfully, we went on our Ramp trip (discussed previously) and the Lord worked wonders. That first night that I was at the Spring Ramp 2017, God delivered me from all of the fear and anxiety that was taking over my life. Guys, as said before, You do not know that you are in chains until you are set free. That night changed everything for me.

That night of conference changed how much I would be able to learn in the other sessions. It changed how far I could go to share the Gospel. This beautiful night filled with the presence of the living God changed every detail of my life. After this conference, my life made a full one-eighty. I could finally walk without chains grasping my feet. Freedom, given by God, from bondage is one thing I will never be able to express in words. It is something that you have to experience for yourself.

I am going to end by giving alll the praise to my Father above. Since that night, I have not been truthfully scared of one thing. I have not had one bad dream and I can express in words how thankful I am to God. He has wrecked me, put me back together, changed me, remade me, and He is the absolute BEST thing that has EVER happened to me. He is the reason I am here. He is the reason I am alive. He is the reason I can walk freely without having to carry the heaven chains of fear, anxiety, depression, or anything in between. Thankful, am I, for the Lord and his unending, never-failing, all consuming love, grace, and mercy. He is the reason I sing endless hallelujahs.

"You drowned my fears in perfect love" - No Longer Slaves x Bethel Music