Father, I am Sorry

Dear my Heavenly Father,

I am sorry.

I am sorry that I lost my temper. I am sorry that the stressors of this world made me be mean. I am sorry that I hurt your sons and daughters. I am sorry that I didn't honor my mother and father. I am sorry that I took one more bite. I am sorry that I looked for one more second. I am sorry I said one more word. I am sorry I took just one more step.

But Father, I thank You. I thank You that even in my short comings, You are good. I thank You that with all my imperfections, You don't take Jesus, love, or grace away. I am thankful that You go before us, behind us, and on both sides of us to push us further, pull us out of dark places, and hold our hands as we walk through fire. I thank You for sending Jesus, so that everything listed above won't be counted against me. I thank You that I don't have to live with condemnation from the things above.

Your love, mercy, grace, kindness, gentleness, goodness, faithfulness, and everything You are abounds so much more each day. You filter me. You love me. You guide me. You send the Holy Spirit to give me peace and conviction and discernment. You cover me with Your feathers and I take refuge under Your wings.

My heart aches. I am humbled and broken hearted because of my sins. I have realized my striving. I recognize how I allowed the devil to play on my emotions, oh, my God, forgive me.

May I grow from this. Draw close to me, let me study Your face so that I may become more like You. Forge my heart, pound out those wrong motives, burn the inequities. Father, may I go back to the beginning and be reborn in Your image. You can have it all. I trust You. My heart longs for You. My knees shake, I crash down upon them in a humble surrender to my King, the One and Only. the Alpha and Omega. Beginning and End. First and Last. and the only One worthy to open the scroll.

May we be prepared for You. May out of these trials and tribulations flow fresh fruits, bright flowers, and warm honey. You have so much more for those who love You, You have so much more for me.

I accept Your forgiveness. I am so thankful that You allow me to accept, You allow me to even ask. I am so thankful for Jesus and His blood. Father, I deny myself, pick up my cross, and follow You. No excuses, no complaints, may I be whole heartedly in love that I look for no other lover. Here I am, send me.

I will go, even if I have to live the lowest of lows.

Accept this prayer. Hear my plea. I know You will, because You always do.

Thank You for sleeping beside me. Thank You for being my cover. Thank You for being my satisfaction.

May everyone who reads my heart poured out know there is a God worth loving. May they realize there is a living God in Israel who is always there. May they hear You tonight and accept the call. Jesus, may they follow You. Father, may they love You. Forgive them, for they know not what they do. And may I be just as quick to forgive, just as gentle to speak, just as loving in response, just as graceful in approach, and just as honest in words. For I am nothing without You. May my every action represent You and Your love, grace, mercy, fruit, kindness, gentleness, sovereignty, and goodness.

For I am made in Your image, may I live up to it.

I cannot get enough of You. Wreck me over and over with Your tsunamis of love. Stay closer to me than the ninety degree humidity. Spin me with Your presence like a tornado. Overflow me like the rain. My heart wants more. More of You and nothing less. God, You are everything. I need nothing more.

Help me. Thank You for hearing tonight. Touch someone like You touch me tonight.

I pray and petition and request all this in my savior, Jesus Christ's precious name. Amen.