A Thousand Times I've Failed, Still Your Mercy Remains

Wow, it has been a while guys. A whole month in fact. I have to say that I have felt lost and just distracted for this past month. I had no idea what to post, and was constantly trying to come up with something. Yet I felt and urge to "just wait." So I waited. But through this month only one saying stuck in my head. "A Thousand Times I've Failed, Still Your Mercy Remains." This "quote" is from the song "From the Inside Out."

Since the beginning of July I have decided to fast social media (except Facebook) for the month of July or at least until my birthday (July 28th). I wanted to connect with God and search His heart. But I couldn't find it. I was reading my Bible but something was off. I still have no idea what it is. Maybe an attack from the Enemy or maybe I am not trying hard enough? I have no clue.

Anyway, these song lyrics have been stuck in my head and, to be honest, I have no clue what "Mercy" really is. I always get it mixed up with grace. So the dictionary definition of Mercy is, "compassion or forgiveness shown toward someone whom it is within one's power to punish or harm."

That gives some clarity. Lately I have felt like I failed God, and I have continually forgotten that He gives grace and mercy to me whenever I do fail. And to me, that is just something so beautiful. A big God like him shouldn't have to worry or save me. I am not worthy of his love, grace, or mercy. Every time that I felt like I wasn't good enough, or that I had failed Him, he has just continually reminded me that I am going to fail thousands and thousands of times but His mercy still remains. This month has been a realization of how imperfect and undeserving I am. I don't deserve anything in this life, yet God blessed me with the jackpot.

So, I came on here to share that God's mercy is always there. If you ask him to forgive you, he does immediately and the Bible says that he forgets. Isn't he just so good to us, he doesn't even hold us by our sins. God will never come at you or ask you, "you remember when you did _______?" He gives us a clean slate every day. How amazing!

I just want you guys to know that God's mercy is always there. And you're going to fail, thousands and thousands of times, still His mercy remains.